My Man..........

Ok- so I am taking a cue from my BFJ and dedicated a blog to my husband, Chad......
~LOVING HIM~
~I love the way he knows how to piss me off, then make it all okay by INSISTING I give him a kiss
~I love the way he can read my mind- he always knows to send me a text saying I love you at the moment I am feeling like giving up!
~I love how he has been the one to make our marriage work by not giving up when all was lost
~I love how much I need him to make my life complete
~I love how we have stupid inside jokes that no one else understands or even cares about (chicken and eggs)
~I love how committed he is to his beliefs
~I love when he looks into my eyes and calls me a "poopface"
~I love when he gives me 2 cards for every special occasion, a funny one and a serious one
~I love how he sings to me
~I love how he thinks I look sexy in a white bra and white cotton panties
~I love how I still get all hot and bothered when he takes off his glasses
~I even love (don't get too excited) when he plays World of Warcraft in his undies
~Most of all, I love that I can't wait for more children with him, then grandchildren, then our retirement........
~I love you,baby!! Happy 5 year Anniversary (July 27)! Here's to many more!!~
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A Beautiful Crossroads.....

I am not the type of Christian to "testify" or "witness". I am a quiet, reverent Catholic, for God's sake! I do work at a daycare called King's Kids, which is directly affiliated with The Chapel of the Holy Spirit and WKCL 91.5 FM, "Where We KNOW Christ Lives"......But I am at a point in my life to where I need to understand the end of life and the Faith I have been taught. I want Aidan to understand that God IS a vengeful God, but He DOES forgive!! I have cuts on my body that I put there because I was not ready to forgive myself for the sins of others. I am ready to do that now. The struggle I have within myself is mine and His, and I KNOW He was only waiting for me to acknowledge the strength He gave me. I have been reading the Bible and trying to identify His word. I took the advice of another person and started to read Proverbs, a chapter per day (31 chap.=31 days of the month). I needed to have God's spirit in me to overcome all other wants. Yes, I DO still drink alcohol, but I feel that His Word guides me to always serve my husband and my son (even my Mother and Father- whom I forgive for reasons I cannot publish). I am not illustrating a "bible beater" existence! I read the Bible for years and tried to "get" the fulfillment I needed. Life has evolved to where we as Christians need to live according to the Word as it applies to OUR lives. The 10 Commandments are a wonderful guide to our lives and the happiness we can gather from them. Reality is something we all have to live in, however, the things we innately know that are wrong are the things we need to stay away from, whatsoever our beliefs. My personal belief is that God has a plan for all of us! It may bite the big one while we are experiencing it, but there WILL be a day when it is all clarified for you! Forgiveness becomes as ordinary as breathing and mortal sin becomes a PAST transgression to which you KNOW all is forgiven, because it is something you will never even think of to do again and you have peace..........I wish you all peace, forgiveness and understanding!

Well- I am not pregnant. The blood test came back today and it was negative. I am ok about it, though! I don't think I would have gotten soooo worked up in the first place if my period wasn't so late!! It is still not here- 3 weeks and counting....I AM ready for a new baby, especially since my "baby" turned 4 yesterday! And, we got some very good advice from someone we both respect. We have some things to finish working out in our relationship and his advice was to just let God guide us. God knows what is truly in our hearts and I really believe He has a plan for us. We will continue our family when it is time. Thanks to all who is keeping us in their thoughts!! Til next time!!

Well- I am NOW waiting on a blood test to tell me if I am preggo.....Hopefully I will find out on Monday............

Hmmm...

I am a little worried. I have all the symptoms of being preggo, but the tests say I am not. I have a dr's appointment on Thurs with a general practitioner b/c my gyno's office is freakin booked until July 24th!! That's a little fucked up, to me anyways! I called last week when I was a week late, they told me to wait until I was 2 weeks late, take another test, then call them if it still said negative. I did. And now I am supposed to wait 2 MORE weeks!! Honestly- something is not right here and they want me to wait longer?!? I guess that's the end of that relationship! I am also diabetic and I do take some meds that are not good for pregnant women. Apparently that is not as important to them as it is to me and my husband! We WANT another child and I don't want to jeopardize my health and our child's. So, please keep us in mind these next few days while we find out what the hell is up!! Update on Thurs!!