A Beautiful Crossroads.....

I am not the type of Christian to "testify" or "witness". I am a quiet, reverent Catholic, for God's sake! I do work at a daycare called King's Kids, which is directly affiliated with The Chapel of the Holy Spirit and WKCL 91.5 FM, "Where We KNOW Christ Lives"......But I am at a point in my life to where I need to understand the end of life and the Faith I have been taught. I want Aidan to understand that God IS a vengeful God, but He DOES forgive!! I have cuts on my body that I put there because I was not ready to forgive myself for the sins of others. I am ready to do that now. The struggle I have within myself is mine and His, and I KNOW He was only waiting for me to acknowledge the strength He gave me. I have been reading the Bible and trying to identify His word. I took the advice of another person and started to read Proverbs, a chapter per day (31 chap.=31 days of the month). I needed to have God's spirit in me to overcome all other wants. Yes, I DO still drink alcohol, but I feel that His Word guides me to always serve my husband and my son (even my Mother and Father- whom I forgive for reasons I cannot publish). I am not illustrating a "bible beater" existence! I read the Bible for years and tried to "get" the fulfillment I needed. Life has evolved to where we as Christians need to live according to the Word as it applies to OUR lives. The 10 Commandments are a wonderful guide to our lives and the happiness we can gather from them. Reality is something we all have to live in, however, the things we innately know that are wrong are the things we need to stay away from, whatsoever our beliefs. My personal belief is that God has a plan for all of us! It may bite the big one while we are experiencing it, but there WILL be a day when it is all clarified for you! Forgiveness becomes as ordinary as breathing and mortal sin becomes a PAST transgression to which you KNOW all is forgiven, because it is something you will never even think of to do again and you have peace..........I wish you all peace, forgiveness and understanding!